It’s a new season, feeling that God is giving me a new strength, new passion, new joy…and I’m really delighting myself in Him. I’m enjoying Him very much, and His presence is becoming more real than ever…His blessings overflows in my life…so overwhelmed by His grace and love.
Just last night, was lying on my bed, ready to go to bed…after started to fall asleep when I was praying..hehe…happened sometimes…And I was playing a devotional music..with lyric that goes like “Lord, You have my heart, and I will search for Yours…” Suddenly just felt the presence of God in the room, I could actually feel Him there just watching over me. Everytime I sleep, He watches over me..never realised this before, but it was overwhelming…God never sleeps!And His eyes are on me all the times!!! What a revelation!! Cos sometimes I forget that He’s with me all the times…but it doesn’t change the fact that His presence is with me every moment. So had a good cry before I slept…hehe….
Monday, August 27, 2007
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Hot Spot!
Went to Yuen's to get 10kg of rice for a friend...and need to rush off to another meeting back in Toowong. Parked my car right in front of the Vietnamese bakery, and a thought came to me, well...maybe I should buy some bread?I reasoned that I can serve the people with that...cos I hardly buy things from that bakery.
A lady came out and served me, as my hand reached to pick up the buns, she saw something on my wrist...and asked me if I am a follower of Dalai Lama???huh???haha...and I just explained that it's nothing special, bought it cos I like the butterfly thingy dangling..(love everything with butterflies...). And I told her that I'm a follower of Jesus, a Christian...and there we started chatted about our beliefs, and shared with her how I used to be a Buddhist. Apparently she follows Dalai Lama teaching.
Went back to my car...and was thanking God for giving me the chance to share, eventhough unexpected..but I realised that oh mannn!!! God is really convicting me about sharing the gospel of Christ, in anyway possible. I felt that drives and passion that I've never felt before..
And when He puts me in a "hot spot" - there I have a choice - What am I doing with the gospel in my hand?
I developed a motto for myself :
"Whatever it takes!" for the kingdom of God - this helped me a lot in times where I dont feel like going the extra mile, or when my selfishness and ego arise within me.
I just tell myself..."Whatever it takes, Su Kian!!"Do it for Christ' sake!"
And another one is:
"Just Do It!" for the kingdom of God - especially when I hestitate, and try to reason and justify myself not to have to do certain things. Quickly I'll tell myself again.."Just do it, Su Kian!!For Christ' sake!!"
They really works!!!hahaha...and God really fills my heart with joy - it became my strength.
Nothing of my own....
So when God puts you in a "hot spot" - what would you do?
A lady came out and served me, as my hand reached to pick up the buns, she saw something on my wrist...and asked me if I am a follower of Dalai Lama???huh???haha...and I just explained that it's nothing special, bought it cos I like the butterfly thingy dangling..(love everything with butterflies...). And I told her that I'm a follower of Jesus, a Christian...and there we started chatted about our beliefs, and shared with her how I used to be a Buddhist. Apparently she follows Dalai Lama teaching.
Went back to my car...and was thanking God for giving me the chance to share, eventhough unexpected..but I realised that oh mannn!!! God is really convicting me about sharing the gospel of Christ, in anyway possible. I felt that drives and passion that I've never felt before..
And when He puts me in a "hot spot" - there I have a choice - What am I doing with the gospel in my hand?
I developed a motto for myself :
"Whatever it takes!" for the kingdom of God - this helped me a lot in times where I dont feel like going the extra mile, or when my selfishness and ego arise within me.
I just tell myself..."Whatever it takes, Su Kian!!"Do it for Christ' sake!"
And another one is:
"Just Do It!" for the kingdom of God - especially when I hestitate, and try to reason and justify myself not to have to do certain things. Quickly I'll tell myself again.."Just do it, Su Kian!!For Christ' sake!!"
They really works!!!hahaha...and God really fills my heart with joy - it became my strength.
Nothing of my own....
So when God puts you in a "hot spot" - what would you do?
Monday, August 20, 2007
Decisions..it’s all about decisions…
When God opened my eyes to myself in the reflection of His mirror of truth, well..it’s not a very pretty look. I begin to discover so many weaknesses and imperfections, a human being inside me, frankly…I felt ashamed about myself…not that I hate myself, I do love myself, but something in me called the sinful nature, separate from who I am, but not really…if you know what I mean.
Kept saying…”God, there’s nothing good in me at all!!! Times and times again I sinned against You..what to do with me????…quite frustrating because you want to do something about it, but you feel you cant do anything about it???
“Please change me, Lord…change my heart, I don’t want to be like this!”What can I do to change myself?”
While expecting that I’d heard some kind of convicting loud voice from God to affirm that yesss…I’m a sinner, and what I did is not right in His eyes…
Instead, I heard a gentle answer….His Spirit spoke to me”It’s not about being something, or trying to change something, it’s not about how can I changed myself to reach a standard that I set for myself….But it’s about every decision that you make, the choices that you make at each point of time and situation. It’s about making the right choice…it’s about choosing Christ.”
I was overwhelmed by that…a gentle voice that comforts and brings light into the situation. There’s a peace that came and flooded my mind and heart. Knowing that I don’t have to be Miss Perfect Christian to please God…I am who I am with all my imperfections, and I am determined to do what is right and pleasing to Him. He is pleased with my obedience, not with what I can offer or sacrifice. The exercise of self-will and to submit it under the authority itself demonstrated the sacrifice and act of worship to acknowledge the sovereignity of Christ over our lives.
Whenever you come to a cross-roads, or any given situation where you need to decide and act, Pause…and Ask… What Would Jesus Do?Then…Just Do It!
“Jesus guides us towards Christ-likeness and yet remember the fallenness of our humanity”
(quote from the book “Beautiful Offering” – Angela Thomas)
Kept saying…”God, there’s nothing good in me at all!!! Times and times again I sinned against You..what to do with me????…quite frustrating because you want to do something about it, but you feel you cant do anything about it???
“Please change me, Lord…change my heart, I don’t want to be like this!”What can I do to change myself?”
While expecting that I’d heard some kind of convicting loud voice from God to affirm that yesss…I’m a sinner, and what I did is not right in His eyes…
Instead, I heard a gentle answer….His Spirit spoke to me”It’s not about being something, or trying to change something, it’s not about how can I changed myself to reach a standard that I set for myself….But it’s about every decision that you make, the choices that you make at each point of time and situation. It’s about making the right choice…it’s about choosing Christ.”
I was overwhelmed by that…a gentle voice that comforts and brings light into the situation. There’s a peace that came and flooded my mind and heart. Knowing that I don’t have to be Miss Perfect Christian to please God…I am who I am with all my imperfections, and I am determined to do what is right and pleasing to Him. He is pleased with my obedience, not with what I can offer or sacrifice. The exercise of self-will and to submit it under the authority itself demonstrated the sacrifice and act of worship to acknowledge the sovereignity of Christ over our lives.
Whenever you come to a cross-roads, or any given situation where you need to decide and act, Pause…and Ask… What Would Jesus Do?Then…Just Do It!
“Jesus guides us towards Christ-likeness and yet remember the fallenness of our humanity”
(quote from the book “Beautiful Offering” – Angela Thomas)
Thursday, August 16, 2007
My Interview
Today went for my citizenship interview in the morning. Got everything needed, and memorised the answers to the question that they’ll be asking. So pretty sure that today will mark the day of history in Su Kian’s life journey…
Then…found out that I have to wait until next month, the 15th September, to lodge in my application. Haihhh…I forgot to count the days when I was on my holiday for the past two years. They count every single day that I am actually staying in Australia.
The interesting part is…starting from the 17th September, they will introduce the new test – where you have to sit for multiple choice questions…sounds a bit scary for me…and the officer told me that I don’t have to do the test, if I lodge my application online on the Saturday, 15th September.
Thank God!!!! So close….but really praise God!!!
All I can say is…”God, why do you have to make it such a suspense and exciting for me???” Hahhahaa…walking with God is the greatest adventure!!!
Then…found out that I have to wait until next month, the 15th September, to lodge in my application. Haihhh…I forgot to count the days when I was on my holiday for the past two years. They count every single day that I am actually staying in Australia.
The interesting part is…starting from the 17th September, they will introduce the new test – where you have to sit for multiple choice questions…sounds a bit scary for me…and the officer told me that I don’t have to do the test, if I lodge my application online on the Saturday, 15th September.
Thank God!!!! So close….but really praise God!!!
All I can say is…”God, why do you have to make it such a suspense and exciting for me???” Hahhahaa…walking with God is the greatest adventure!!!
Showers of Blessings
After a season of drought, the rain started to pour out….I guess it’s raining now, and my life has been soaking lately on His presence. With that, blessings follows…. J
I’ve been wanting to buy a computer, it’s been a couple of months already…such a procrastinator!!Hehe, but financially as well a bit difficult. And remembered that I did once prayed and ask God to give one to me…hehe…felt kinda silly afterwards, then I reasoned to myself that computer doesn’t just fall down or get delivered to your front door. So put away the thought of getting a “free” computer from God.
This month I was getting close of buying it…and one fine night, my housemate Felisa, received a phone call from her friend whom just came back to Brisbane a week ago, and guess what…..
She asked Felisa if anyone needed a computer, and she’s “giving away” hers, in the midst of spring cleaning her apartment.
In the midst of preparing salad for dinner, my heart kinda leaps! Haha…was stunned and surprised. And without any hesitation, I say “Yes” to the offer!!!
In my heart, I said to God…”Lord, I wasn’t that serious asking you for a “free” computer…, but apparently You are serious with my request!”
Was reminded that couple of days before, on one fine night, in God’s presence, was expressing my desire to want Him more..and I told Him that I do not ask for blessings, nor any success in career, nor a house, nor a new car, nor a life partner(seriously….), if there’s one thing I ask is You, Lord. I know that nothing could ever fill that place in my heart other than Him. I know it…
And this God-chasing experience became really..really exciting!challenging!won’t change anything for it. I really found what I’m living for..it’s Him, a person, the truth, not the “things” of Him, nor what I can get and be for Him. The core of all that is basically a “relationship”…a love relationship with Jesus. And in the process, I am changed, and in that place, I am where He wants me to be, and doing what I’m supposed to be doing. I believe that when we place the right priority in our lives, everything will sort of fit and turn out to be just right. But again, we must not look at it through our human eyes, but through God’s…through the lenses of faith in Him.
So, it was really “sweet” of Him giving me blessings…He must have delighted in me…Ohhh..I think I’m falling in love again…
Still hasn’t really settled in my head that I actually have a “free” computer – from someone that I barely knew – I mean, that’s definitely God!!!
It taught me a lesson, that nothing is too small for God, and He cares in every little details of our lives. Even the very strand of our hair, He knows it! I can believe Him for everything!
I’ve been wanting to buy a computer, it’s been a couple of months already…such a procrastinator!!Hehe, but financially as well a bit difficult. And remembered that I did once prayed and ask God to give one to me…hehe…felt kinda silly afterwards, then I reasoned to myself that computer doesn’t just fall down or get delivered to your front door. So put away the thought of getting a “free” computer from God.
This month I was getting close of buying it…and one fine night, my housemate Felisa, received a phone call from her friend whom just came back to Brisbane a week ago, and guess what…..
She asked Felisa if anyone needed a computer, and she’s “giving away” hers, in the midst of spring cleaning her apartment.
In the midst of preparing salad for dinner, my heart kinda leaps! Haha…was stunned and surprised. And without any hesitation, I say “Yes” to the offer!!!
In my heart, I said to God…”Lord, I wasn’t that serious asking you for a “free” computer…, but apparently You are serious with my request!”
Was reminded that couple of days before, on one fine night, in God’s presence, was expressing my desire to want Him more..and I told Him that I do not ask for blessings, nor any success in career, nor a house, nor a new car, nor a life partner(seriously….), if there’s one thing I ask is You, Lord. I know that nothing could ever fill that place in my heart other than Him. I know it…
And this God-chasing experience became really..really exciting!challenging!won’t change anything for it. I really found what I’m living for..it’s Him, a person, the truth, not the “things” of Him, nor what I can get and be for Him. The core of all that is basically a “relationship”…a love relationship with Jesus. And in the process, I am changed, and in that place, I am where He wants me to be, and doing what I’m supposed to be doing. I believe that when we place the right priority in our lives, everything will sort of fit and turn out to be just right. But again, we must not look at it through our human eyes, but through God’s…through the lenses of faith in Him.
So, it was really “sweet” of Him giving me blessings…He must have delighted in me…Ohhh..I think I’m falling in love again…
Still hasn’t really settled in my head that I actually have a “free” computer – from someone that I barely knew – I mean, that’s definitely God!!!
It taught me a lesson, that nothing is too small for God, and He cares in every little details of our lives. Even the very strand of our hair, He knows it! I can believe Him for everything!
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